i wish i knew where i was going with my life. but then again, i don’t. y’knoww what i mean? like it worries me that i don’t know what i really want to do & that right now i’m not enjoying what i do. school work is not for me-__-! all i want to do is dance really. or wake up and do something that reallllly excites me or that i enjoy. but then again it’s exciting going on this journey through life without knowing what’s going to happen to me. kinda like watching a new movie! it’s more exciting if you don’t know what’s going to happen next, where as in a movie that you’ve already seen you already know what expect so it’s all routine and there’s no thrill. basically, i wish i didn’t dread waking up in the mornings to go to school. i wish that instead i would wake up looking forward to something. y’know whattt i mean?!
p.s. this is so all over the place and random. idk if it made any sense at all, but that’s what my mind is thinking right now! wahhh i’m just going through one of those times where you ask yourself, “wtf am i doing with my life?” i knowwww we all go through em!
"after all, today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday."
my mom always sends me interesting e-mails that she gets from her friends and family, and the one that i read today reminded me that everyday we all have two choices: to be in a good mood or to be in a bad mood. you are the one who chooses how you react to your surroundings and you choose your mood. when something comes along you can either choose to be a victim or you can choose to learn from it. “Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice.” (quoted directly from the e-mail).
CHOOSE TO LIVE. lighten up & live! don’t choose to exist and take up space in this world. living is so much more fun.
if you don't fix and change something nothing will improve.
& you’ll just go back to how things were before. don’t go back, move forward. i’ve learned that life doesn’t stop for anybody, so why waste your time stopping your progress to go back to old habits? things aren’t making sense and it’s sad to watch. eh, i guess we’ll see how this pans out.
i need something really exciting right now. things are getting too routine and uninteresting. i think that’s why i’ve been feeling annoyed with a few things lately :/ ohhhh noooooo. we’ll see how things pan out.
- went to school and got rockstar parking for my 7:30AM class. (i got there around 7:28AM and was still able to park in the closest aisle to my classroom. HAYYY!) - had a productive english class - snacked on a kashi bar on the way to sign language - basically goofed off in sign language with some funny people (which was somehow acceptable today) - went to my car, finished my kettle chips, and popped open my sweet tea before i drove off to gas up and go find food at my house! - got home and changed into shorts because i wasn’t comfortable in my skirt - found out that there’s no food at home so i went to flame broiler and got a chicken salad :D - got rockstar parking again for my 1:15 history class - ate my salad and drank my tea in my car before class - went to history class which wasn’t too bad because my teacher is super funny - stopped by tj maxx on the way back home and got a shirt for $6 - decided to go to fashion joy in chino hills and bought a dress, two skirts, and a new belly ring! - hated myself for a second because i shop so much and spend all my money so quick. then came to the conclusion that i’m not gonna shop until i get a job (which may be sooon!) or if things don’t pan out the right way then just for the next month. - went home and cleaned my car and a bunch of laundry! - got hungry so ate the rest of my salad and then decided to go to Mr. Wok to get a medium hot and sour soup - got there and ran into my friend shelby’s parents while i was wearing the shorts that she gave me which her parents bought for her hahhaa - ordered my soup, but didn’t end up paying because the nice lady said i didn’t have to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW NICE! HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAYYYY <3 - stopped by the gas station to get lime hot cheetos - got home and ate my soup and cheetos in the garage - and now my mommy is home from work! we might go out and buy snacks so that i don’t starve when she’s not home and maybe even eat more :D
WHATTA PLEASANT DAY! i hope your’s is going quite dandy as wellllll <3
this is a really personal question so i don't know if you're going to answer or not, but do you like dancing with your legs in the spa? sorry if this is too personal :/ AHHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH I CAN’T BREATHE!!!! but yes i do. more specifically, i like to wave my hands in front of my face while i kinda jerk so that no one can seee me!
“A man once told me.. I’ll take care of you, I’ll love you, I have your heart, and it is mine. I dared to believe. Life happened, and the words became nothing. Later, a man told me… I would never do you wrong, I care about you so much, I love you. Now, the words seem so faint, almost about to disappear.. sometimes the heart learns from its past experiences, and begins to create a barrier.”—(via jacquelineaquino)
sippin on iced green tea in the garage with my dog on this beautiful day while downloading/listening to music. plus my neighbor’s baby is so adorable and shared a moment with my dog nikka. nothing too crazy, but i’m happy :]
The hedgehog’s dilemma, or sometimes the porcupine dilemma, is an analogy about the challenges of human intimacy. It describes a situation in which a group of hedgehogs all seek to become close to one another in order to share their heat during cold weather. However, once accomplished, they cannot avoid hurting one another with their sharp quills. They must step away from one another. Though they all share the intention of a close reciprocal relationship, this may not occur for reasons which they cannot avoid.
The hedgehog’s dilemma suggests that despite goodwill, human intimacy cannot occur without substantial mutual harm, and what results is cautious behavior and weak relationships.