“Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.”—Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)
nothing extravagant happened today, but i’ve just had a huge smile on my face all day. :]
oh but the funniest thing that probably happened today was when one of my students showed up to class with her face painted like a blue, glittery butterfly. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAH. i died.
“can it be i stayed away too long?
did i leave your mind when i was gone?
it’s not my thing trying to get back,
but this time let me tell you where i’m at.
i wanna be where you are. anywhere you are.
i wanna be where you are. everywhere you are.”—michael jackson
the smallest kind gesture, the simplest sad story, a beautiful/heartfelt dance or song, or anything that i sense is overwhelmingly genuine can make me cry. i guarantee you that if you show me a movie that involves a sick dad and a kid, i will cry. or if you truly show some care and concern for me at a perfect moment, i will cry. i’m easily touched emotionally and sometimes it’s embarassing, but overall i am thankful.
i’m thankful that i have the capability to be so inspired to tears. i’m thankful for being able to understand the beauty and meaning in small things. and i feel these emotions at all.
today mt. sac had a game at 1 against rcc. we won :] it was blazing hot and everyone almost died. haha jk. but really. but it was still fun! our half time performance was pretty fierce if i do say so myself! after i went to panda express with everyone for our fundraiser! THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO CAME! i ate so much :] then i went home for a bit and then had my dad drop me off at db since he needed my car (-___-) and did the pep/dance showcase! fun times. then my boyfriend picked me up since i had no car and we went to target and watched boondocks and he took me home cause i was exhaustedddd.
and tomorrow i have dance team competition practice from 9-1. it’s gonna be hell. and then i have maryann’s debut practice in west cov at 3! gooodnessss. GOODNIGHT!
So a friend of mine asked if he could have my old verizon phone, and of course I said yes! But before he came to pick it up I decided to charge the phone for a bit. When the phone was semi-charged I started looking at old text messages and came across messages from May 2009 between my current boyfriend and I! Old feelings instantly came rushing back in & I now have butterflies :]
“It turned out he wasn’t in love with me like I thought. What I’m trying to say is, I understand feeling as small and insignificant as humanly possible and how it can ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you. And it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join or glasses of champagne you drink with your girlfriends, you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong, or how you could’ve misunderstood and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he’ll see the light and show up at your door and after all that however long all that may be, you’ll go somewhere new and you’ll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again and it’ll be as though your soul will finally come back and all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted that will eventually begin to fade.”—The Holiday (via poeticheartache)